Climbing Trees

Maybe you've felt like this before. Or, I don't know you, maybe you haven't. But I do now. It's the feeling 
of swallowing the lump.
of not enough oxygen when you breathe in.
of freefalling and grasping at air.
of the walls of this carefully constructed numbness caving in.
It's the feeling of being overwhelmed. 
When I get to this place, all I can think about is art. I can't sleep because I know I have things to do but I'll stay up and still not do them. Instead, I get incredibly creative.  It's a coping mechanism and it's a curse. There's that quote about "If you judge a fish on it's ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing it is stupid"... and I don't know why but I haven't been able to get that out of my head since I heard it three years ago because it is just so relevant. I am judged everyday on my ability to do science when I know that's not what I am best at. So, right when I need to study the most, in the days before the test, I turn to art to prove to myself that I still have value even if I can't climb the tree. It's just kind of sad that the fish in this case was unlucky enough to be born into a world that pays its treeclimbers far better than its swimmers. And maybe it's good for me to learn to climb the tree but it's not exactly what I was designed for and sometimes it hurts when I fall off. But it's 5:21am and I'm hungry and I really need to study...

Social Media Takeover

Good news! The Etsy shop is finally online!

 https://www.etsy.com/listing/190299136/go-wild-barcode-spray-painted-tshirts? 

Now I'm crossing my fingers that the spraypainted tshirts actually sell. To use online, I tried to take cool pictures (that ended up all looking more or less the same) and failed a little bit but oh well. Light painting at 5 am is still a fun time. 

Do you have a favorite? I really couldn't decide. I hated all of them equally.

I have more good news! Because I am ridiculously lazy, I was spending a typical summer day on the couch watching TV. An ad came on for wix.com that lets you create a free website. I was a little bit skeptical but it actually is free and also so easy that I designed the whole thing overnight, plus it's mobile friendly. It gives a little more background about the Go Wild TShirts that I'm selling on Etsy and it has links to all my social media accounts. So if you have free time, maybe you should head over to 

http://gowildtshirts.wix.com/original 

...I love you...

The plan is to post all over social media so the people that I know in person or follow or share similar tastes and interests with can find my shop on Etsy easily. Since I am still trying (unsuccessfully) to become employed, I have too much free time and I decided to put this to good use by reading up on SEO, visibility, web analytics, and all that stuff with big words I couldn't define if you asked me. This has so far amounted to a grand total of zero sales, but we'll see.