#missingmymothership

Melancholic

I'm floating in the galaxy and I've lost my mothership
It's hard to breathe can somebody flip the switch
Cause it's too dark to see I fear I'm losing me and to be honest, it's getting lonely
I've got nothing to hold on to
Cause I'm out here without you
Not that I need you but I just want to see you because maybe I miss you a little bit.
It's me against the melancholic
I planned this out. I was trying to be an optimist about it.
It didn't look like this in my head, in my head.
All I can think about is my bed, is my bed.
We're in the relevance.

I could fall asleep if you were next to me
Let's get lost in my dreams or somewhere in the galaxy.
Flip the switch. Push the buttons.
Fly this ship I know you're all in.


https://soundcloud.com/570rm/melancholic

summer is bittersweet

Flour Angel

I'm a slave to the fantasy.

But this has set me free.

inspired by http://www.flickr.com/photos/jerinthebox/4115866663/

http://5t0rm.tumblr.com

And music:

https://soundcloud.com/570rm/compass

you are the story, i am the canvas

tonight we cry but tomorrow night we dance a lot.
listen to it here:
https://soundcloud.com/570rm/the-canvas

http://www.flickr.com/photos/53774180@N08/10445879986/

every scar tells a story

here's a pretty basic/boring piano soundscape to accompany my musings :)
https://soundcloud.com/570rmxiii/every-scar-tells-a-story


Lately I've been fascinated by scars. Each scar is uniquely yours and symbolizes a time when you were stronger than whatever challenged you. Your skin grew back tougher, thicker- marking you as braver than before. Scars are second chances and also an insight into the human who bears them. Chances are you remember the stories behind yours because they've made you who you are. 

So tell me, what are the best stories your scars tell?

i love you

maintain the mystery

Oops I think this just became a photography blog. Well kind of. As usual, my musical output isn't really anything impressive but I have been working on photography stuff so I uploaded some. I hope that's ok!

To start with, here's a really old shot that I just re-edited

new stuff

First things things first:
https://soundcloud.com/570rmxiii/piano-improv-1

And then some random photography :)

 

 

My tumblr: http://5t0rm.tumblr.com

My Pinterest (where there's a lot more): http://pinterest.com/thegilpinterest/my-pictures/

My old Flickr: http://www.flickr.com/photos/53774180@N08/

there's other stuff too but I am 100% sure no one actually cares haha

Finish Line

take a deep breath
say it out loud
think about it now
and then stand down

https://soundcloud.com/570rmxiii/finish-line

Runner

A pretty basic piano melody with meaningless lyrics and layers added in garageband.

https://soundcloud.com/570rmxiii/runner

NZT

http://5t0rm.tumblr.com/post/50400043678

There is way too much to be done these days. Stupid shit like studying which for some reason takes like 987764652x as much time and effort for me than any other human. And on top of that I'm lazy. So my only time left is pretty much reserved for sleeping and complaining how busy I am, kind of like I'm doing now.

I came across some new music the other day and for some reason really connected with it. Surprisingly it's borderline classical, but the lack of lyrics frees your mind to wander and by the end of it you've scripted the next Citizen Kane and feel like you're on NZT from Limitless. Since I usually only ever blog about my own stuff, I thought this by Einaudi deserved a shoutout:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zq1hPXJPtto
See if it does for you what it did for me.

Aaaand there it is.
https://soundcloud.com/570rm/atmospheric
Don't tell me you didn't see that one coming :)

XXX
Storm

Update

I can keep this really short, there are only two things to say:

1) The song I mentioned in the last post didn't turn out. (Although that doesn't mean I won't keep working on it and trying to make it...)

but

2) Instead, something I had saved in the notes on my phone with just a bassline in mind did! So here's that: https://soundcloud.com/570rm/am-dont-talk-about-it

XXX
storm

Lester

I actually uploaded something!! It's kinda cool even though it's really bad because I kept the video of me playing it attached to the final, edited sound... if that makes any sense. Or, you could just go watch it: https://vimeo.com/56136170 Just make sure you listen with speakers or headphones with nice bass- trust me, it matters.

So hopefully I'll keep doing stuff since I have a couple weeks off. I'm working on something else that might turn out- or might not, depending :) Until then, maybe you'll actually like this?

and here's the soundcloud link:
https://soundcloud.com/570rm/lester

XXX
storm

Still

I've gotten everything that I used as an excuse for not making better music. I used to say that I could do it when I had a Macbook. Then, only if I had my own Macbook. I said that I needed a synth. A better guitar. The right cords and converters. Guitar lessons. A band. New software is still on the list, and a tabla or drum machine, but you and I can both see how this is going. Tonight I realized how pathetic my attempts have been. Since I moved into my dorm, I have only touched my guitar and Garageband once. ONCE. And, (even though I try not to say this out loud), I may have some ridiculous dreams of actually doing music for a living someday. I am a contradiction. I want to take the world by storm with my music, but yet I don't write or even play. I've heard it said that if something is important enough to you, you'll make time for it. But music is important to me. The only reason I can think of is that I'm scared- it might not turn out like I imagined (read: perfect), and then I would feel like permanently quitting. Isn't it better if I just postpone the failure so at least right now I can feel like I'm good at music?

Tonight, I broke out an unfinished song, one which explores new musical territory for me. That means that there is a huge risk involved. If my attempt to.... rap (yes, little middle-class white girl, blah blah blah- shut up)... if rap doesn't doesn't go well this time, I might never touch it again. I found some old synth/iPad recordings and tried to put the two together. Perfect? NO. But at least I opened Garageband.

I need to remember to keep getting back on the horse, even though it's big and it's scary and it is wayyyy too easy to fall off. And tomorrow, I will open Garageband again.

XXX
storm

Tumblr!

This is pretty unrelated to music-making, but I thought I'd mention that I have a tumblr that I'm currently obsessed with, so maybe follow me so I'm not super lonely? I would love to look at yours too, so here's the link:
http://5t0rm.tumblr.com

And, uh, I'd love to say there's more original stuff on there, but mostly it's pictures I find inspiring...

XXX
storm

We can check that off.

     One thing I remember learning in ninth grade health class besides "drugs are bad" was that the high you get from them is the same as playing music or sports or acting on stage or skydiving or rock-climbing. So you can buy happiness. It's called weed. But, wouldn't it be more fun to actually skydive?

Amazing skydiving video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xFEN7BQ7Zus&list=FLjZlHcBb2iP7iP6pJeYE-VA&feature=mh_lolz

My health teacher at the time was a musician, and he told us he found euphoria playing with his band on stage. I always thought that was kind of cool, and never having experimented with lessthanlegal substances myself, wondered what a rush that was worth risk and money would feel like. I also happen to be a musician, but am pretty shy and scared of playing in front of actual people. I wasn't the type of person that could play live. But, lately I've been restless and frustrated with the multiple ruts I've allowed myself to fall into. I've been far too busy with The Mentalist to bother to climb back out of those ruts. That's just pathetic. A week or two ago, I called up my friend who, like me, loves music, but is scared of performing. "Play live" was on the summer bucket list. In fact, "LIVE" had been on my hand (where I write everything important) for the past three years. Tonight was open mic night at a local venue. And tonight, I can finally wash my hands of "LIVE"- literally. I couldn't help noticing that my name online is storm (the reasons behind this deserve their own whole post) and, as we drove home, a huge thunderstorm blew in, with the dramatic flashes following us as we sped away at the speed of light, euphoric at having finally conquered some long-standing fears. A good omen?

XXX 
storm

http://soundcloud.com/570rm/this-used-to-be-the-future

So here I am. 1:33 am and more awake than I've quite possibly ever felt before. I guess I didn't know exactly how it would feel, despite all the hours I laid awake imagining it. I finally completed a song, recorded it, edited it, uploaded it, and amazingly, still liked it. Obviously it's not perfect, because my voice cracks at 2:55 and the "blinded by your arrogance" doesn't fit like I'd planned, but it's done. And so, even if you normally see naive, teenage DIY musicians trying to get people to listen to their stuff and are indifferent or slightly annoyed, I'm really, really sorry but it would mean the world if you commented. 

http://soundcloud.com/570rm/this-used-to-be-the-future

XXX
storm